Trust and Obedience or Faith and Clarity?

For a number of reasons I've been in a very dry place spiritually.  There have been times when all I wanted to do was give up.  Walk away from more than just my life, job and faith.  Temptation is a harsh thing and thank God He delivers us from evil, and leads us not into temptation...we do that all on our own quite well.

Long story short...He found me this weekend.  In fact, the prayer and word spoken over me was that "I was lost and now I'm found".  God is good.  So faithful.  So incredibly faithful.

Too much happened this weekend to blog it, and besides, it's mine and God's anyway.  Some things are just meant to be pondered in the heart, cherished between Father and daughter. 

I will say this though.  We pray - I pray - often, for the wrong things.  Like we pray for faith when we ought to pray for trust or we pray for clarity when we ought to pray for obedience. 

Let me put this into perspective...

Let's say I'm watching a man wheelbarrow people across a tightrope over Niagara Falls.  He carries over 5000 people over without dropping one.  I have faith he can do it.  That's not the issue.  The issue is when it comes my turn to get into the wheelbarrow...will my faith that he CAN do turn to trust that when I'm in the wheelbarrow, he WILL do it again?

Or let's say he says "Rena, time to get into the wheelbarrow?"  Did I hear him right?  Will I pray for clarity?  And keep praying for clarity, over and over again because, really, I simply don't want to get into the wheelbarrow.  Or will I obey...will I simply get into the wheelbarrow, no clarity needed?

I've been praying for faith and clarity when I needed to trust and obey. 

It's just that simple.

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